うどん

今日の晩ご飯はうどん！
インスタントですけど美味しいかった。

\(//∇//)\

Injeolmi- Korean traditional rice cake

I made it in 15 minutes.
On my way back home after studying, I was craving for something sweet.

I was thinking what's there sweet but healthier than candy or ice cream.

There we go! I found Dang-go flour and soy bean flour. Let's do it!

Yakitori Boy

Dinner with my two Japanese friends, Riho and Kanon at Yakitori Boy.



Philadelphia Downtown Festival

I went to the downtown for manicure and pedicure. After the spa, I was wondering around the town and smell of barbeque on the street with crowds. I'm on diet and have not eaten well prepared food. Therefore, automatically I followed the smell. There was a festival that I couldn’t figure out the name or theme. About half down walking on the street, I thought of Jazz at home alone. I took the taxi and took Jazz really quick and drove back to the downtown. I wanted to show him have fun with other dogs on the street and smell the food and enjoy the crowds. Because he is a small dog, it was hard for him to walk on the street with many legs passing. I held him and let him see stuff that I see.

I think he was a bit tired on our way back home, but I felt very good and proud of him for managing the loud sounds well. There were many cheap food from restaurants, which original price is between $10~30. I bought 3 crab rangun (3 for $1), pork fried rice ($3), and chicken scured ($1) for takeout.

It takes about an hour from the downtown to home, so Jazz stopped for party and took a rest himself. After I took him a bath, he felt a sleep right away. I'm very glad that I got to enjoy the beautiful weather with my baby, Jazz. If there were my favorite friends with me, which would be much more grateful but.... 

2012/May/19

Missing

If you start to miss someone, take out a photo and stare at the eyes...

(Sounds scary...) Later, it feels like the picture is giving you a comfort. \(//∇//)\ It is really hard to realize that my one way love can't be true. 

情

Last food that I made for my precious friends.. Cried and saws Jazz and cried more.

At the airport, I promised myself to show only the smiley face, but it never happened.

It happened so quick, and I couldn’t even give good bye hug..

On my way back home with empty trunk and seats, I cried and cried.

I mean, what’s so sad about it? I’ll see them again!! (really…..?)

情… powerful enough to make someone’s heart unstable.

Memories

(Bonus)

Memories with friends..

This weekend will be the end of our memory book..

Hope we can see each other in the short future..

Thank you for love me and be with me..

Reason

I thought this is it! I was kind of happy, but now I'm back in moody mode.. I thought I can be happy forever but just realized that people come and go.. The time is running so quickly, and I don't even have chance to or ready for... Be happier.... Graduate school pressure and nervousness have already reached to the top and watching friends on top of their schedules and plans just make me worry more(compare to mine).


Called, they said 'Now, it's all on you.. It's all your choice and ability to achieve your goal/promises. We can only support you but other than that, we can't help you..'


What a pressure.. What a depressed moment when I think of my short future, because I don't see any progress.. I want to work but in order to do so, I need this graduate degree..


I've been living so busy, alone, and right now, parties, drinking, hangout, dining-out, seems so fun and interesting.. But I'm too old(?) or seems too late to have 'FUN'.


I'm tired, but I can't express this to my parents, because they gave up on lot of things only for me. I can't let them down, because of my stupid thoughts and lack of self-esteem..




As I wished, I have friends beside me, but they will leave me soon, and obviously I'll be alone again.. One of my friend said 'Don't express you tough situation because we all have the same problems like you! We know you are trying your best, so you don't have to try to share your feeling with others..' Yes, you are so right, but you know what? This is who I'm.. Like my parents said, I have not learn how to control my feelings and knowing how to socialize/and a guidance how to socialize from the parents. That's why I am having rough time, when I'm facing socializing, academics and more..


I want to live in a new environment, but I have no time.  One of my friends said so.. He said, it's time to travel and see things that I only saw from YouTube, pictures, and stories from friends. Yes, I really want to try all of that, but I'm not sure which comes first: Travel, experience new things, and be in a relationship VS. satisfy my parents. Please somebody tell me I'm doing a great job. My parent only support me in financially, but right now, I might need more mental support, so I don't get tired or get scared of what I am facing now. Seems in making this too big, for some people, it could be nothing/piece of cake! But because who I am, (stuff that I can change) current situation is too much for me. I know how to deal with living problems, but as I said, the emotion problem has been coming so viciously.. But I can't evade this right?


Again, I promise myself, not to overwhelmed by what I am facing! Like someone said, "good bye is indifferent". Merely, we can't see often as we are. "Sophie, you have been great, and I know you can be a successful woman, so I don't worry about you." This is what I want to hear..!! Thank you.....


Maybe, I can do this thing!! Keep in mind.. There are so many friends who are supporting me including my pernicious families. Don't think about how I will shown to them, because anyhow, they will be proud of me. :)

Chic girl

Ganbatteimasu~ ^-^

화이티잉!! Nyang~ *^^*

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Run To You

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

[Chorus:]
I want to run to you (oooh)
I want to run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I want to run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

[Chorus]

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much..